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Jesus, take the wheel. As a matter of fact, take the whole ride

                                        Jesus, take the wheel. As a matter of fact, take the whole ride It’s 7:25 am. My youngest son has to be at school by 7:35 am. We are still at home, getting shoes on, and backpacks ready. Despite my tone, no movement. My two boys are on the couch oblivious to my requests, which quickly turn into demands.           By this time, it’s a guarantee I’m feeling tense; jaw clenched, sweating, agitated and stressed.  It’s the neverending race against time. “If only I had more time”. It’s too much. On days where I can barely keep my eyes open, I still need to come home, put sheets to dry because of a bedtime accident the night before.  There’s always something that takes up our time. We do so much throughout the day, we are dead tired by the time our heads hit the pillow, and before you know it,...
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Perserverance

Topic: Perseverance  I’m sure a lot of us can relate to a season of stillness and complacency.  You’re stuck in a season of stillness that has gone on a lot longer than you hoped for.  We question how much longer we have to suffer until our prayers of breakthrough shine brightly.  The struggles, the no call backs, the rejections, the silence.  It’s challenging to stay faithful in a season that all you want to do is hide in a corner and pout.  Your feelings become stronger than your faith. There is so much unknown that you begin to feel uneasy, fearful, anxious, and maybe even hopeless?  It’s the unknown, the questions, the fear of making a decision that’s outside of God’s will. The tightening in your stomach when you feel everything around you seems to be coming down. It could be work, relationships, health.  We are all going through storms. It’s during these storms that we are called to persevere and produce endurance.    We look to Sc...
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Transformed and Renewed

My hope for this first blog is to help others who find themselves in a similar situation.  Topic today: Renewed faith topped with grief.  This past year has been a season of testing. Back in November 2020, I went through a deep depression. I was hesitant to include mental health in my blog, but reminded the hesitation comes from the stigma society has engraved in our perceptions of how we are "supposed" to cope with challenges.  Back in November, I felt anxious and worried. I had been a remote teacher, and the distance from school and colleagues caused me to feel isolated. This caused so much distress at home. I doubted myself. My confidence was at its lowest.  There were several times I sobbed uncontrollably. The feeling of being stuck can really get into your core. Almost every sitting area in our home was tainted with my tears. Tear drops would dry on the floor and look like spilt water. I cried so much on the floor of my closet one night, I wasn't sure how I was ...
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